Current mood:

restless

hey, long-time-no-typey, eh? :P

well, i graduated :P lol...

i'm bored though. all i've been doing is working, not that that is absolutely horrible or anything, i'm just bored. and really, incredibly, really restless. i want to do something, go somewhere, ANYTHING... i'm starting to feel kinda depressed. so much in fact my mom has noticed and is starting to worry, which gets pretty annoying...

it doesn't help that spencer hasn't called me or anything... i think i've really screwed things up this time... i told him the friday before graduation that he didn't have to go through with our little deal thingy for on graduation, because i got thinking and realized that i shouldn't have even proposed this stupid idea in the first place last fall. i put him on the spot and *of course* he would agree to it then because 1) i put him on the spot 2) the chances of him having a girlfriend right now were *very* good (because we all know spencer) and 3) because he wouldn't want to hurt my feelings. but he's really confusing me. he said friday that he kinda wanted to go through with it. i told him to think about it and let me know sunday, and come sunday, he pretty much avoided it, but still made the comment that he kinda wanted to. the thing is, he won't return any of my calls and i can never get ahold of anything but his voicemail. i dunno...

:P

boys suck. lol.

but i have an interview at big apple bagels in m.p. tomorrow! and i actually had kinda a 'mini interview' today when i dropped off my application because i was able to give it right to a manager and she started talking to me right there! and i felt kinda bad because this other girl that she was supposed to be having an actual interview with right then was standing right there while the manager was talking to me! lol... but i think i've got a pretty good chance of getting the job because of that! she made some pretty nice comments :P

so yeah, other than working, feeling incredibly depressed, smoking a half pack a day, and trying to track down spencer, i really haven't done a whole hell of a lot. which is very depressing in itself O.o

so yep, maudie, you me and heather have to get together sometime, or even just you and me if heather can't do anything!

but for now, i'm gonna go.

i'll try and update as soon as i can again!

btw, has anyone read 'Jane Eyre', by charlotte bronte??? if you haven't, you definately should! i'm loving it and i'm only half way through! highly reccommend! :P