Kendalyn

just a quick post...

2007-02-14T22:47:19Z

because i'm bored... and waiting for david to get here :)

its valentine's day... big woop. lol... (that was meant to be sarcastic :P

yeah, so my thoughts on valentine's day are STILL this:

its stupid. lol

its been extorted into something it was never meant to be... all the stupid chocolate and stuffed animals and gifts and whatever... and girls w/boyfriends/fiances/husbands always expect *stuff*, so guys either buy them *stuff* or they don't for some reason and then the girl gets angry or hurt.

and yes. i do have a boyfriend. but i told him when it came up the other day, that i do NOT care about valentines day. don't worry about doing anything 'special' or w/e... so he's making me a card lol

like i said to my mom this morning when i walked into the coffeeshop and she had this huge grin on her face and said HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! all cheery and shit, i gave her the 'look', rolled my eyes, and she said, what, you have a boyfriend now. i replied with it's going to take more than simply having a boyfriend to get me to warm up to valentine's day.

lol... so yeah, don't expect much enthusiasm from me :P

just be happy you have someone who cares for you, and there shouldn't have to be a special day every year to remind you of that. you should appreciate it everyday.

okay, so i'm done be a party pooper :P

and for the record, david came up w/the idea of seeing music & lyrics tonight... his idea, not mine and i told him flat-out i don't want to be one of the girls that drags her bf to a chick flick, i'm perfectly fine w/seeing hannibal rising or something lol

but yeah, we're going to see music & lyrics... i'll have to let you know how it is tomorrow or something :P

happy freaking valentines day y'all :P

so yep... grin

2007-02-07T23:24:25Z

heather and i went to stanton again last night...

*sillygrin*

we met up with robert and david at robert's mom's house and we made tacos for dinner while they were trying to unfreeze the water lines O.o

yep... i had fun... lots of fun :P

and, heather, because you're not going to stop bugging me until i tell you this, david left me a message on myspace that answered your question about whether we were 'going out'... he said we were :P ...and he also said he 'really really likes' me lol...

okay, i'm done being giddy now :P

...

...i hope i can go to stanton again tomorrow :P

lol, okay, now i'm really done XD

hmmm....

2007-02-06T02:18:43Z

heh...

:P

the last two days have been pretty interesting...

i went with heather to robert's yesterday for his super bowl 'party' and we got drunk lol... heather was absolutely hilarious! well, a little annoying, but she was soooo loopy! i was great :P

anyway... XD

...

the main reason i went to roberts was so that i could meet one of his friends, david... because supposedly he's liked me since the last time i was at robert's, which was two months ago and i think i only saw david for like five minutes, but w/e :P

anywhoo... things went pretty good... okay, very good :P he's really sweet, and funny... it was really nice, because we ended up talking A LOT and it was nice because it's been a while since i've had someone i felt that comfortable talking with... :)

anywayz... he's supposed to call me in a little bit (i hope he does! lol!) so yep...

goodnight everyone! :P

....

2007-01-25T03:16:00Z

so it's been forever since i've posted here... myspace has taken over my soul :P

well, i've been back from florida officially for almost three months now... and all i've done is run the freaking coffeebox i mean coffee *shop*... driving me insane!

i feel like my life is sucking right now. and i hate saying 'my life sucks', because i know there's always someone out there who's having worse days than me, and quite frankly, i suppose i don't necessarily have a sucky life, its just boring as hell and monotonous... i suppose what makes it so 'sucky' is that i have too much time to think about stuff...

and thats what starts the 'suckiness'.

for starters, i have practically no one to to talk to about all this stuff. i don't feel like i can really talk to my parents about this stuff, i'm hesitant about talking to heather about a lot of stuff because it feels like she blows me off or doesn't want to talk about any of this or she'll say something that really pisses me off like 'welcome to adult life' (IF YOU READ THIS HEATHER: i KNOW you care, i'm not bitching about you or anything, but you know how hard it is for me to 'open-up', so all i'm trying to say is take it a little easier on me, okay? :)

i feel so alone... i've finally given up on spencer. well, i've quit calling him... he knows that if he ever needs me, he can call. and you that are reading this are probably thinking i'm psycho and obsessed w/him, but thats another thing i can't talk about w/anybody bc none of you understand. grrrr... not 'grrrr' at you guys, just 'grrrr' at my frustrastions. and the fact that spencer has made me look like a psycho stalker person...

and then theres randy. he says i'm one of his best friends, okay. i talked to him a lot just before christmas, then i can't get a hold of him until this past MONDAY... and thats only for (not even) five minutes because he's busy, but at least i was able to find out that he's leaving TODAY for basic training in chicago. he just... i know this is gonna sound selfish, but he's made me feel like i don't matter to him all of a sudden. he hasn't even told me he and ada are officially getting married! i know absolutely nothing about it, and i had to find out from HEATHER! (no offense, heather!)

i feel like i'm floundering... drowning... suffocating WHATEVER!... all i do is go to m.p., work nine or ten hours, and come home maybe read or watch some tv, get online for a little bit, eat dinner and go to bed. i have NO life and i WANT ONE!!! i want to be a normal 18 year old girl! i want to have friends who like to hang out and do fun, normal teenage girl stuff! i want to have a boyfriend! i want to have someone i can ALWAYS count on! i want a job where i can just show up for work, do my thing, leave, GET PAID, and not have to worry about reporting every single fricking thing to your boss/MOM every damn night!

i've bitten off more than i could chew, and now i'm choking... slowly, slowly dying from lack of oxygen... more like suffocating, i guess. well, i suppose thats close to the same thing...

you get the point.

well, i just sighed, so i must feel a little better :P

i'm getting tired, so i'm gonna go now...

thankyou livejournal. you're the one friend that will always listen to every word i have to say, and you never say anything back that will piss me off. lol

:P

goodnight!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-10-05T10:29:00

2006-10-05T15:32:36Z

I'M COMING HOME TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOT!!!

lol...

and, yes, maud, we MUST have a bonfire :P

i'm not sure what i'm doing about the parade and game yet, but i'm DEFINATELy going lol...

do you have class on friday?

i'll have to give you a call friday to let you know what's going on, since i won't be flying in to flint until 11 PM tonight :(

ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-09-27T12:20:00

2006-09-27T17:29:13Z

its official!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm coming back for a visit on oct. 5!!!

only bad thing is that my flight comes in at 11:10 THAT NIGHT!!!! damnit!!! so angry about that... i woulda thought my dad would get the early one for me, but nooo he doesn't want to take half a day off work just to take me to the airport. but OH WELL!!! I'M COMING HOME!!!

lol!

but i leave monday morning. oh well...

maudie, we need to have a bonfire!!! and you need to go to the game!!! and the parade!!! lol

i get my first paycheck on friday! woot! can't wait!

okay, i really don't have a whole lot to say, so i'm gonna go...

ttyl! seeya in 7 days!!!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-09-19T16:28:00

2006-09-19T21:48:43Z

HIII!

okay.

i love my job :P

it's not necessarily fun, but i keep busy and the people are nice and i get to see lots and lots of books. lol! and i always smell coffee :P

i usually just work on the floor shelving or rearranging books and telling customers 'i'm sorry i'm new i don't know where that is' :P actually, i'm learning. lol. and like i said, the other workers are really nice!

omg, though, there's this one kid that just started working the day after me and he is six foot six and just as skinny as the other person we all know who is really tall and skinny... sorry, i can't bring myself to say his name at the moment... >:(

but yeah, freaked me out for a minute. lol. i felt bad. but he's really nice, kinda quiet though... but everyone at work says that about me too :P

anyway... not much to tell about...

oh! i went to pensacola today to shop for clothes for work, and you have to go over a very long bridge (well, it's like 2 or 3 miles, but still!) and it was scary! for starters, i *hate* being above water, sounds odd, i know, but bridges over water freak me out. but anyway they're doing construction *one* the fricking bridge, and on the bridge back from pensacola (there's two separate bridges right now, one for east bound one for westbound) there were two sections where all that was between your tires and the water were STEEL GRATES!!! O.o

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i don't know if any of you have ever driven on those before, but they are a pain in the ass. it pulls the car back and forth as if it were incredibly, *incredibly* windy. sooo scary!!!

anywhoo... lol...

yep, i'm sooo excited i've only got 16 days til i come home!!!!!!!!!

wooooo! lol.

okay, i'm done now. :P

ttyl!

still missing everyone!!!!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-09-05T15:12:00

2006-09-05T20:28:26Z

i did something veryveryveryvery bad on friday...

O.o

i was at work, i had only been there for two hours, so it was about nine a.m., and i asked the manager if i could go have a cigarette (which is a normal thing). well, he said yes so i went out back, sat in my car like i usually do, and left.

yes... i drove off. i went home. no warning, nothing. just left.

i couldn't handle it anymore! i am not cut out for fast food! and i still can't believe i did that! what really set me off though was this one chick that just *mutters* like she's nuts, and i swear to god, if i had to put up with that or cranky bitchy customers or my feet hurting any longer, then *i* would have gone nuts.

actually, i think i did go slightly crazy for those five minutes it took me to turn on my car and get to my house... lol..

so after i'd calmed myself down a bit, i called krystal and told my manager what i did and i just rambled on and on for a bout a minute before i had to stop and take a breath and guess what he did?! "Okay, well, seeya later then."

lmao! he sounded like he was smiling too! gah!!! i started laughing my ass off.

so i told my dad that when i told my manager i had a another job (oh, btw, i got the job at BOOKSAMILLION! lol!) he just said in that case i don't have to bother coming back to work and, in fact, if i wanted to leave for the day, then that was fine.

and my dad believed it, thank god, because he would have KILLED me if he found out what i did! so don't tell my parents what i actually did :P

so, yep, i got the job at booksamillion... the only problem was that, half way thru my interview, they realized i was only 17 and they were actually *really* disappointed because technically they're not allowed to hire anyone under 18 because they sell porn. but they really wanted me to work there because of my experience with coffeeshops! so they called some people 'higher up' and pulled some strings so now i can only work part time (but it will be about 32 hours/wk!) and i can't go anywhere near the cash register, all until i turn 18.

but i'm happy. lol... i don't know when i'll start work though because they had to do a background check and before they could start that they had to email me something and i had to fill something out online, then they could start it. but i didn't get to a computer until saturday, then it takes the background check people about 3 days to do it, but then they don't work on sat. and sun. and they probably didn't work monday either. so they're probably just starting it today and hopefully i'll be able to start friday! woot!

i went down to destin today and went to the beach and it is sooo pretty! even though there were some nasty looking rain clouds coming in, the water was sooo clear and blueish and green!!! so pretty!!! you guys need to come down soon!

i called you, heather and left you a voicemail while i was at the beach, so you might be able to hear the waves in the background! lol!

oh, and i have my cell phone working now, so you can call me whenever!!!

well, anyway, i'm going to go for now...

i miss you all lots and lots!!!

talk to you all later!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-08-29T15:46:00

2006-08-29T21:01:00Z

so i've been pretty busy lately, sorry i haven't updated in a while :P

i've been working nearly every single day from 7-2, which isn't bad, but its just a bitch getting up in the mornings lol... it doesn't help that i have to take my sisters to school (they start at 7am!) and traffic is psychotic every morning so i tell them we have to leave the house by 630 at the LATEST... and every morning we end up leaving a little later than the day before, to the point where i got to work at like 659! O.o

anyway, i'm getting better at the whole fast food thing... i'm still screwing up about half the orders i take, tho :P at least they don't get as mad at me as people did at mcdonalds :)

i really don't like it though... by the time i leave i'm so tired i don't feel like doing anything but going home and sleeping. and the shoes i bought for work, you know the special working shoes or w/e, they hurt my feet so bad! i totally should have just gotten black tennis shoes :P everyone else wheres them lol... but on the plus side, i can where black jeans! lol

i miss everyone... i went down to destin earlier, which is a little island about forty minutes south of here, and i really like it there! i was job hunting, and i stopped at a bunch of places that said they were hiring and *really* need people, so yay lol... the only hangup to getting a job there is that there is a 2.50 toll there and back across the bridge O.o so i'd probably have to get a prepaid one, but oh well... then i stopped in niceville (creepy name, no :P ) at an animal clinic that is looking for a kennel tech, so i got an application for there also...

but i was stupid. lol... you see, they also have a pet adoption place thingy, and i really, honest to god wasn't going to stop in, but i turned back around as i saw this little puppy through the window... so i went in... because i'm a sucker :P he's was sooo cute! he's a little hound mix, looked kinda like a beagle, his name is niko, and he can't be more than 4 or 5 months old... i started asking the lady questions about him and i played with him... he scratched up my arm a little, tho, but i don't care!!! lol... i miss my louie!!! i bought him a collar while i was there because they have a little store, too... but she said niko was a very well behaved puppy... he's not entirely house trained yet, but she said he does let her know when he has to go outside because he'll run around in his pen really fast and whimper... lol! i want him! :P i was seriously tempted to get him, but my dad would have seriously KILLED me... i am going to *casually* mention it to him later, though... i know i shouldn't get him anyway, though, because i've got louie, and two dogs i seriously think might be too much for me to handle right now, especially since i'm not living in my own place... and louie is stuck at my grandpa's until i get back, and he'll probably still be stuck there after i get back, because i'll probably end up living there with him!... and i don't want to have to dump another dog on my grandpa...

not that i *dumped* him on him, i guess... just that i'd feel bad because when i'm at work, my grandpa would have to look after him too... i mean, i'm sure he wouldn't mind, he loves louie and he's got louie's sister, plus he was watching chloe for a while as well... but chloe is full grown, not a puppy, and much better behaved than louie... and dana... combined, lol...

okay, i think i'm gonna be done rambling for now... i've applications to fill out online, and i only get one hour at a time... once a day... annoying. :P

well, i miss you guys lots!!! one month left, and i'll be back at least for a little while!!!

ttyl!

bored. go figure :P

2006-08-15T15:47:57Z

so i start my job at Krystal (a little fast food place, kinda like a mcdonalds or kfc... or whitecastle, my dad said lol) tomorrow morning at 7am til 2pm... woo.hoo.

O.o

i've also got an application for a parking lot toll person at the okaloosa airport that i'm going to turn in later! i'd much rather have that job! i don't wanna work in a fast food place! :( but the people do seem nice for once, which is a plus :P

and i've made a deal with my dad.

he said that if i get a job (which i did) and save up some money then at the end of september, *he* will pay my way back to michigan, whether my mom is down here yet or not! woohooo! lol.

good deal, eh?

but then i'll have to find a job there. but there is that new mall thats going into m.p., opening in october, i think? which will be perfect!

six and a half weeks to go! lol!

well, i'm gonna go now...

ttyl!

miss you guys!!!!

florida sucks.

2006-08-04T17:15:47Z

...yep, it really does... or this town anyway. its like alma, only bigger. and this is probably worse because i don't know anyone here. the few places that are hiring suck, and the other towns that i've been to/thru look a lot cooler than here, but they're at least 20 minutes away and my dad doesn't want me getting a job that far away, because of gas (tho it is a lot cheaper here! 2.99! woo! and 2.90 on base! WOO! lol).

i just got a library card today so that i can come here and use the computer.

school started yesterday for my sisters, but they can't actually start until monday because they needed a bunch of paperwork and shit.

i don't know how much longer i can stand being stuck here in crestview. it sucks worse than alma. but we were in pensacola the other day to pick up alexis from the airport (dirty little shit got to FLY down here and lauren and i had to ride in the fricking moving van w/my grandma's husband for 2 flipping days!!! grrrrrr!) anyway, i liked pensacola! it was nice! lotsa stores that don't look crappy, nice streets (tho very busy), and a ton of decent places that were hiring! but its almost an hour away. damn.

if i do decide to stay in florida, i'll definately *not* be staying here. i'd would most likely try to find a place in pensacola.

but i know i'll be coming back once my mom gets down here, i just don't know if i'll be staying real long... i dunno.

anyway... i'll talk to you guys later!

i miss you maudie and heather!!!!!!!!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-07-21T12:16:00

2006-07-21T16:31:38Z

well...

so i haven't posted in a while :P

well, i'm looking for a job. i've had about five interviews at different places in m.p. and all of them have been a no-go. oh, and you wanna no why i'm soo pissed off right now? well, i'm gonna tell you anyway :P i had an interview at applebees last week and the guy said he'd give me a call, and i hadn't heard from him yet so i stopped by earlier and asked to talk to him, like you *should* do, you know? well, one of the other managers came out to talk to me and told me that i'd be getting something in the mail. and the bitch was sooo cheery about it too! gah!! so i get home, open up the mailbox, and out fly 3 wasps... plus two more just hanging out on the ceiling inside the mailbox. and they just sit there, walk around a little, and really piss me off more bcuz i don't exactly feel like getting stung but there's a whole fricking *stack* of mail in there, and i WANT IT! lol... finally they fly out and kicking the goddamn mailbox a few times, and sitting in the stack is a little postcard from applebees. i open it and its a fucking COUPON!!!!! ten percent off my next meal. woo.fucking.hoo.

yep, so now i'm at my grandpas. but on the plus side i got an email from the guy at the island house on mackinac island saying he'd like to talk to me about working there. so i called him. he wasn't there, so they took a message. so now i'm waiting for a call back. but he spelled my name wrong in the email... k*a*ndalyn.... it looked funny...

oh, before i forget:

*MY OPEN HOUSE IS SUNDAY FROM 1P.M.-4P.M. @WRIGHT AVE. PARK*

come if you don't have anything better to do :P

i feel so pissed off right now. and it's mainly the fucking job thing. oh, and i had an interview at robaire's earlier also and the lady said that she didn't need any help until around aug. 15th.... and i can't wait that long :(

i guess part of my stress right now is trying to decide whether or not i'm going to florida. and my parents are constantly on my case about making up my mind, but i know that if i make up my mind now, then i'll have too much time between now and whenever we move to dwell on my decision, change my mind, and keep dwelling on it! so if i find a job, i'll be staying here and not going to florida for sure. but if i don't by the time we move, then i'll probably be *forced* to go with them, and if i go, i want to go because *i've* decided to go. does that make sense? i have no idea what to do... i *HATE* not knowing what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, i think i'm done ranting for now... i'll talk to you guys later, or come to my open house!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-06-10T23:34:00

2006-06-11T03:48:13Z

hey, long-time-no-typey, eh? :P

well, i graduated :P lol...

i'm bored though. all i've been doing is working, not that that is absolutely horrible or anything, i'm just bored. and really, incredibly, really restless. i want to do something, go somewhere, ANYTHING... i'm starting to feel kinda depressed. so much in fact my mom has noticed and is starting to worry, which gets pretty annoying...

it doesn't help that spencer hasn't called me or anything... i think i've really screwed things up this time... i told him the friday before graduation that he didn't have to go through with our little deal thingy for on graduation, because i got thinking and realized that i shouldn't have even proposed this stupid idea in the first place last fall. i put him on the spot and *of course* he would agree to it then because 1) i put him on the spot 2) the chances of him having a girlfriend right now were *very* good (because we all know spencer) and 3) because he wouldn't want to hurt my feelings. but he's really confusing me. he said friday that he kinda wanted to go through with it. i told him to think about it and let me know sunday, and come sunday, he pretty much avoided it, but still made the comment that he kinda wanted to. the thing is, he won't return any of my calls and i can never get ahold of anything but his voicemail. i dunno...

:P

boys suck. lol.

but i have an interview at big apple bagels in m.p. tomorrow! and i actually had kinda a 'mini interview' today when i dropped off my application because i was able to give it right to a manager and she started talking to me right there! and i felt kinda bad because this other girl that she was supposed to be having an actual interview with right then was standing right there while the manager was talking to me! lol... but i think i've got a pretty good chance of getting the job because of that! she made some pretty nice comments :P

so yeah, other than working, feeling incredibly depressed, smoking a half pack a day, and trying to track down spencer, i really haven't done a whole hell of a lot. which is very depressing in itself O.o

so yep, maudie, you me and heather have to get together sometime, or even just you and me if heather can't do anything!

but for now, i'm gonna go.

i'll try and update as soon as i can again!

btw, has anyone read 'Jane Eyre', by charlotte bronte??? if you haven't, you definately should! i'm loving it and i'm only half way through! highly reccommend! :P

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-25T08:53:00

2006-05-25T12:59:26Z

ITS MY LAST DAY!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! lol.

i'm sitting in the art room because i'm bored and supposed to be working on the band exam paper thingy (that i don't think i actually *have* to take but newman wants me to, and i don't know for sure if i do or not), but i can't think of anything to write that will take up at least two pages. O.o

i finished choreographing back in black yesterday morning during first block, taught it during fourth block, so now i just have to teach america and hope to god that everyone will get their heads outta their butts long enough to actually *comprehend* and *remember* the routines. (and that includes me, actually :P i forget a few parts of the routines as we're going thru them and i really have trouble remembering them without music. lol.

i have to take my senior writing exam next block which only takes about 20 minutes and its soooo easy. then i've got 3rd block off. then i'm coming back for band. and hopefully newman won't kill me (or my grade) if i don't have that paper done.

okay, i think i'm going to go get gas in my car now, since i'm once again on empty and i have to go to mt. pleasant to work tonight. oh, and my parents are talking to someone today who's interested in buying the coffeeshop! this is a good thing :P

i don't want to march in the parade saturday :(

oh well. ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-22T08:25:00

2006-05-22T12:27:41Z

sitting here in art... woooo :p

seniors have bonus days this week in art so we don't have to do anything at all lol... its kinda boring, but i don't have anything to do anyway.

well, i could be working on one of two papers i have to do by wednesday lol... but i'm going to work on those next block.

well, i just thought i'd make a quick post since i probably won't next block, due to those papers.

ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-17T10:23:00

2006-05-17T14:32:50Z

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

6 AND A HALF DAYS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol... i'm happy :P couldn't tell, could ya?

and i'm also soooo freaking happy that i never ever ever ever ever ever have to even LOOK at that damn korean song OR the stupidest song in the world. XD

i'm in a good mood. lol

i'm choreographing back in black for highland festival... its interesting to choreograph. it sounds like everything pretty much should be snappy and/or angles of some sort, not spinny stuff. oh well, i'm having fun!

and i talked to newman this morning about needing to set up times for practice and he said he was going to pull the guard during class today and he was going to let them know whats going on. as in, he said he's going to tell them that *i* am in charge and tell them 'not to be weenies' (his words! lol). so yep, today is going to be interesting!!! plus we're going to most likely listen to possible show tunes for marching band!!! hehehehe!!! lol.

i can't think of anything else to type. except that i beat cubis again yesterday and am now getting very sick of it. so i have to find a new game. actually andrea is playing a game that looks kinda intersting, so i might have to try that! :P

i have to get a yearbook still. and its funny, the whole things absolutely sucks. they screwed up the cover and the senior pictures all look messed up. the guys look like they're wearing lipstick and everyone's faces look funny. actually, this you guys will find funny. i was sitting next to spencer yesterday during lunch and he and beth were looking thru her yearbook at the senior pictures and i looked over and said 'wow, sean (feerhy) looks funny' then i looked again and said 'oh, woops thats cassie!' i seriously thought it had been sean! well, i was looking through someone elses later and i realized that the picture i had thought was sean, actually *had* been sean! but with the angle i was looking at it and the pictures being so crappy already.... lmao... twas funny.

okay, i think i'm done now. ttyl!

btw, glad you're back safe mel!!!! hope you had fun!!!!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-08T10:27:00

2006-05-08T14:58:16Z

well, i've had an interesting weekend O.o

i had to work friday after school, but it was awesome because i ended up getting *three* checks that day! wooohooo lol... one from the coffeeshop, one from the greenhouse, and i got my tax return thingy. i was happy :P but i ended up spending most of it on gas (i filled up my gas tank for the first time in about 3 weeks!!!! i was soo excited :P), then i got a couple little things for my hair, bought a couple of cameras (ended up forgetting them both lol), then some other things i had to have... but of course, i did treat myself a little and went to bath and body works because i had this really cool coupon that expires on the 15th lmao! ;) then i got a new cd because i am addicted to Hinder's 'lips of an angel' lol... okay. i was happy.

after work i had to go find shoes still, and they had to be cheap, because i'm cheap :P (btw, pretty much everything i bought was either on sale, clearance, or i had a coupon! lol!!!) i noticed that they are hiring, so i got an application, still have to turn it in though.

***MAUDIE!!!! payless is hiring! lol :P ***

saturday morning i got up about nine, took a shower and stuff then went to go find some stuff for my hair and something else, i can't remember what though O.o but i ended up getting a triple shot vanilla latte from the bookshop, then later i bought alexis lunch from subway because she was going to do my hair, and then i had some mt. dew. so yeah, by the time alexis got ready to start doing my hair and 2pm, i was pretty hyped up on caffiene lol... twas funny :P

so she started my hair and 2pm, and we didn't get done until quarter after 5. O.o we had to be at my grandpa's to meet up with finn by 530. :S lol... she re-did my hair four different times, and thank god that the last time we redid it i actually liked it! this is the first year i've actually liked my hair for a dance lol. i was happy. i'm going to have to find a way to put pictures up here when i have some spare time at home, which probably won't be for a while, with moving/packing/working/homework lol.

the dance was interesting. it was actually really nice and pretty. food sucked, but thats to be expected, right? finn and i ended up sitting with andrea and her boyfriend, and tina and matt, and kiara. funny thing is i think i talked to randy more than i talked to britney, spencer, ada or anyone else! well, besides tina and andrea :P apparantly randy and ada had a bit of an argument about something and ended up leaving early. oh well.

yeah, i almost screwed things up big time though at about 1030 O.o well, apparantly finn doesn't like me, which honestly i was expecting, but i asked because when he asked me to prom, i was totally surprised. so i asked him what was going on and then he told me and he felt bad about it, and it was awkward for a little bit because he could tell i wasn't having a *really* great time. you see, overall i did have a good time. definately not a *great!!!!* time, but it was horrible. i couldn't tell him what was bothering me, so i think he thought i just wasn't having a good time because of him, which totally had *nothing* to do with him. i was just a little annoyed because andrea ended up leaving early, tina had to be home by 11, so it was just him and me and it was kinda hard to keep things from getting boring.

i *really* wish you guys had been there!!! it would have been a million times better if you had!!! :( that was part of my problem saturday night. another had to do with spencer.... he looked so good lol... the whole thing about me having wanted to ask him to prom was nagging at me the whole night. GAHHHHHH!!!! O.o

sunday i puppy-sat louie and his sister dana while my grandpa, mom, dad, and lauren went to detroit for my little cousin's birthday party. alexis and i stayed at my grandpa's watching the dogs. i took louie and dana for a ride. we went for a walk over by the park and then we went to mcdonald's and i got a sprite and a bag of those little cookies for the dogs because i knew louie liked them because spencer gave me some one day a while back when i went there with louie lol... they liked their cookies :) then we went out to spencer's and i talked to him for a while until his mom got home and yelled at him for not having mowed the lawn yet, so i decided to leave since his mommy already hates me enough as it is O.o

later on i went for a drive and i thought randy might still be in town so i drove by his house and he was so i stopped and talked to him. we talked for almost an hour. it was really nice, since i've talked to him maybe five or six times since school started this year. it's kinda funny though, he's put on some weight lol :P i didn't dare say something to him about though lol... okay, i feel kinda bad :P i realized i'll be really glad when he moves back to alma this summer... :) i miss talking to him all the time.

okay, i've been typing for the last forty minutes now, so i'm gonna go. sorry if this is incredibly long, but i don't feel like going back and putting a cut in :P

ttyl!!! i miss you guys!!! :)

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-04T10:27:00

2006-05-04T14:45:47Z

buh.

so i beat cubis. lol... we just met here in the computer lab today for senior writing and i left my disk w/my paper on it sitting on the computer at home, so i couldn't finish it in class. so now i'm going to have to finish it after work tonight, see if theres something i can do about a peer editor, do some more packing, plus i have to find shoes for saturday still. O.o

i pissed off alexis soooo bad this morning! in fact, she wa so pissed ended up leaving her at home this morning. O.o yeah... she decided to take her time in the shower, putting me and lauren about 15 minutes behind this morning, then she took her sweet time with the hair dryer also, so i told her i was not going to rush for her, i was going to take my time, since it really doesn't matter if i'm late for first block, because studebaker doesn't care. so alexis got out to the car and sat there waiting til about 745, while i called my grandpa to have him call in for lauren so she wouldn't get in trouble for being late. well, alexis decided to honk the horn and i've told her many times not to because i hate it. so when i got out to the car, i told her to get in the backseat because i didn't want her in front w/me, and i'm the driver so there. lol... she wouldn't at first so i just sat there for about five minutes waiting for her to get in the backseat. she was doing math homework so i swiped her book from her, then took her purse, finally she got so mad that she got out, i gave her stuff back to her, and instead of getting into the backseat, she stalked off inside. i hollered at her that i was leaving, and left.

well, she's in school now, i saw her during passing time. oh well. lol... maybe i was being stupid, but she *really* pissed me off this morning. it felt good to finally do something like this to her lol...

i don't want to work tonight! i work out at the greenhouse and it is going to suck! it'll be sooo hot in there :( but i need the money because i have been scrounging up five bucks pretty much every day i've had to work and that gets me just enough to get to and from either mt. pleasant or ithaca. *stupidgasprices!!!!!*

i hope we start highland festival stuff soon!if he waits too much longer, the guard is going to be really struggling with those routines we'll have to pull outta our ass.

okay, maybe i'll see if i can find another game to play.

i'm done complaining :P

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-02T10:15:00

2006-05-02T14:33:03Z

okay, so *way* to take the fun outta my discovery yesterday.

apparantly britney already knew they couldn't 'actively recruit'. they're just going to tell people by word of mouth instead of putting up flyers. oh well. i told her and she was like, 'yeah i know'. O.o lol...

so my mom started crying last night as we were packing. this stupid country song, i think its by carrie underwood, came on the radio and she was bawling about how 'its usually the little girl leaves the family but this is the other way around! the family is leaving the you behind! wahhhhh!' lol... twas interesting :P

oh, mel, you're probably a little confused lol... my dad got a job at an air force base in florida. his report date will probably be sometime this month, and my mom and sisters and i are moving into my grandpa's house until school gets out, then my mom and sisters are moving to florida with my dad. i'll probably end up staying here. lol... interesting, no?

gah! my contact is driving me KNUTS!!!! ever since i got more of the contact solution stuff that i was originally using (it's been off the shelf for a while for some reason) i got this friday from the eye doctor because i couldn't even find the stuff i've *been* using O.o my right contact has been acting stupid. it's like there is a fingerprint on it. like when you have fingerprints on one of the lens in your glasses. it's pissing me off! i'm going to call the eye doctor tonight about it, if i remember... hopefully i will!

i have to work at the coffeeshop tonight. after that i am going to erin and uncle mike's to look at some of erin's old dresses just in case mel's don't fit or something!

btw! i got the dresses from your mom, mel! thankyou! i'll give you a call when i find out what i'm doing!

so i'm not going to be home until maybe 830 tonight, then i have to finish working on my paper for senior writing, plus do some more packing. :S

hmmm... so spencer is going to prom with beth. yep... supposedly nate was cheating on her with megan conn, though i don't know if thats true or not because i honestly cannot imagine nate doing that! but anyway... did i mention to you guys that i was originally thinking of asking spencer to prom, but then finn asked me so i dropped it?... spencer said a bunch of times he wasn't going to prom, but that was mainly because he would have had to pay. but beth already has tickets, so spencer doesn't have to pay, so he's going because she asked him. i guess what i'm getting at is this: its bothering me a little that he's going with her... because i was going to ask him but the whole reason i held off as long as i did was because i was afraid he was going to just say no, you know? but now he's going. its bugging me a little... tina says its okay for it to bug me. lol... i dunno...

well, i'm going to see if i can find something productive to do... like, i dunno, play games or something :P

ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-05-01T11:05:00

2006-05-01T15:08:30Z

wooo guess what i just found out!

britadapalmer's guard can't recruit from schools that have a current winterguard. as in, they can't recruit from ahs. lol! i'm going to tell britney about that next block. she's going to be pissed! muahahaha! i'm so evil :P

i am going to be sooo busy this week! i have to write a paper thats due thursday, find a dress for prom still (its saturday!), work, and pack and be moved in by saturday O.o

yep, gonna be interesting. i've got two minutes left so i thought i'd just update really quick!

ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-04-27T10:29:00

2006-04-27T14:35:47Z

spencer is pissed at me.

he and i got into an argument yesterday. he's been pretty mopy and sulky and its like he's just pouting and feeling sorry for himself and its getting really annoying. and i told him that, probably not in the best possible way, i should have done it differently if i was going to do it at all, and he got pissed off, said i was being a bitch and walked off. so i tried talking to him after school yesterday (this happened in third block yesterday) and it just made things worse. he got in his car and drove off. and i feel like shit because i don't think i should have said anything. it's wierd because he's never really been *mad* at me... i've been mad at him before, lol... not the other way around....

what do you guys think? should i feel bad? should i have said anything? i guess it really doesn't matter now because whats done is done, but i don't know.

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-04-24T10:47:00

2006-04-24T15:06:29Z

i'm trying to fill out this questionnaire for school paper's 'senior issue' and i can't figure out what to leave my sister in the last will and testament thingy... i figured i probably should leave her something, but i can't think of what :P

my mom and i went to lansing yesterday to watch her friend's son's dance performance at lcc. it was pretty cool! actually, we ended up getting there a half hour late because we couldn't find it, but the first performance we saw they were using flags! it sucked, though :P lol... that whole performance really sucked in my opinion, but the rest of them were really cool!

hehe... funny quote from this trip: "Can you turn right on red here?" "I'm assuming so since i don't see a sign...*turning corner*... except for right there..."

yep, you probably had to be there :P

then i realized after we got there and my mom did a u-turn in order to park on the other side of the street ( O.o ) that we couldn't lock the doors on the car because i forgot to grab the un-bent key. lol... and we were right in downtown lansing! yeah, twas interesting :P

i think i've decided i'm going to move in with my grandpa instead of finding an apartment. at the rate i'm going, i'm not going to be able to afford an apartment, or even find an apartment where i can take louie as well.

i've actually mentioned this to my grandpa before and i was thinking i could clean the house to pay for rent, plus i would be able to help keep an eye on louie and his sister dana (who is my grandpa's dog). i would obviously be able to keep louie there since he's staying there right now. plus there are three extra bedrooms, and he has a two computers, both hooked up to cable internet. lol... and two bathrooms! :P

i have a cold. and it sucks. my nose is stuffy/runny, my head hurts, my ears are plugged, and i just plain feel like crap.

oh well.

but i'm in a pretty good mood :P

except for when i remember i have to work at the greenhouse tonight :( like just now :P

i need to find out if that job is just seasonal... and how much they are actually paying me... and *when* i get paid (i don't know for *sure*)... but i'm nervous about asking :P

i'm not looking forward to chem2 right now :( she said we're starting organic chemistry (i think) and that its really hard O.o

okay, i think i'm going to be done for now :P

and i haven't really thought any more about replying to britadapalmer's post on mcgc :S

ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-04-21T10:12:00

2006-04-21T14:46:22Z

okay, i understand what you guys were saying about the whole guard thing, and i really do appreciate your advice!

what you said makes sense, and i know that i'd probably get pretty annoyed with them... but for some reason i just REALLY want to do it! i don't know if its just to spite them or what....

i'm pretty sure i'll be coaching (at least assistant coaching) the colorguard for band next year. newman said i most likely would be able to. and i think that i have enough respect from the freshman this year (which is about half the guard) to be able to handle them next year. the only people i would be a little worried about would be ada and palmer, and not even palmer that much... but i am confident in thinking i would be able to change things for the better with this guard, with britney out of the way.

i actually talked to sova about this when she was in town a few weeks ago and she told me to really focus on the current and (especially) the upcoming freshman. if i can gain their trust and respect, thats what will matter the most because they are the 'future' of the guard. it doesn't really matter what ada will do or act because she's going to be gone in a year anyway... another thing she told me was to make sure i always talk to newman about any decisions we would be making, which makes perfect sense to me. lol... i've got a pretty good relationship with him already, so thats not really much of a problem.

heh, that all sounded pretty cheesy, didn't it? :P

edit: well, i posted this, and *then* realized just how incredibly long this is. so i put the rest of it behind a cut :P

maybe i'm just completely blind and totally not seeing the reality of this. or maybe i'm just bored. or maybe i actually do know what i'm thinking! lol...

i really want to reply to their post on mcgc, still... chances are pretty good that even if i did reply this weekend or even sometime today, they would just ignore it and use me as a last resort, because they've already got two people they're looking into. the first girl that applied is their first choice so far, the second girl is their second... means i would be their third and i'm highly doubting it would make it to me :P unless when they meet this first girl and she really *doesn't* like *theirkind* of music :P or she talks in a nasaly voice :P

yeah, i don't know :P

to completely switch topics, i might have *almost* found a dress for prom lol... i went to the haystack yesterday to look and the girl showed me some dresses in a catalog that they're getting in today, and i absolutely love one of them! lol... it's purty :P and it comes in dark green, which is the color i was looking for too... and it actually isn't insanely expensive like most of the dresses they have there :P it's about half of what we paid for my freshman homecoming dress lol!

anyway... i get paid (from the coffeeshop) today... it's only going to be about 50 bucks, so basically its my gas money for the next week O.o yeah, if gas prices go up too much higher it is really going to suck for people who drive 20 minutes to work everyday! i am either going to m.p. or ithaca every day! and my car is not that great on gas either :(

but on the plus side i did figure out that i'm going to be getting a paycheck every week! both pay biweekly, but their opposite or w/e! this week get a check from the coffeeshop, next week the greenhouse! lol... that makes me happy XD

ahhhhhhh! i have a quiz in chem2 that i'm totally going to fail. lol... not looking forward to it.

oh well...i work tonight and tomorrow at the coffeeshop, then monday at the greenhouse, but other than that, i don't think i'm doing anything! well, i do have to work on a paper for senior writing, but that i'll probably end up holding until tuesday night (its due wednesday :P)

oh, somebody just mentioned movies and that reminded me that tristan and isolde comes out on tuesday! yay :P i liked that movie!... my sisters and i are going to buy it, if i still have a few dollars come tuesday :P

and i really want to see memoirs of a geisha now that i've finished to book... well, actually i finished it a few weeks ago, but we were watching a movie last night and i saw a preview for it that i hadn't seen before :)

have any of you read 'summer sisters' by judy blume? i thought i remembered somebody reading it a while back, but i can't remember who it was... well anyway, i raided my grandpa's bookshelf/cabinet thingy the other night and found a treasure trove (well, not *really*) of old books... not that 'summer sisters' is an old book, because it isn't, but it must've been erin's and she left it there. but i was excited because i found a bunch of books that i've heard of before that i wanted to read... well, 'classics', anyway :P

yep, okay, i have to take a homophone quiz before i forget, so i'll talk to you guys later!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-04-20T10:52:00

2006-04-20T15:09:51Z

hmm... i got an idea... but i'm not sure its a smart idea...

i think i might have mentioned a while back that britney, ada, and palmer posted on mcgc that they're looking for a coach for their 'new guard'... i think i also joked about replying to the post and not letting them know who i really was right away...

well, now i'm seriously considering it. lol! i've decided that i *really* really want to coach... i love the feeling i get when teaching someone how to do something. i'm actually thinking i might want to be a teacher because of it!

but anyway, i really want to coach. i asked newman tuesday if he'd made any decisions about coach for next year's guard or not, and he said he's thought about it a lot, but he hasn't made any decisions yet... hopefully he will soon!... but chances are he is not going to let me coach them alone - i'll probably be assistant coach... but if i were to 'coach' britadapalmerguard... i dunno... lol...

the thing is, britney, ada, and palmer are only looking for a 'coach' (that is, 'coach with the quotes around it!) not an actual Coach. i can assure you that they are only looking for somebody to be able to label their coach because they *need* to have one. it is going to be britadapalmer's guard. the coach will just be a... symbol, i guess... all the coach is really going to have to do is help come up with some ideas for choreography and watch them practice, tell them whats wrong/right, good/bad. but the 'coach' won't have any final say, and *very* little authority.

but the coach will get paid :P

rereading all of that sounds kinda like reasons *not* to coach them, doesn't it? but i still want to do it... i'm not quite sure why... it could just be for the thrill of tricking britney, but i think theres more to it than that... because i have been getting along with her pretty well lately. she's even asked me to join their guard... but i don't really want to join...

i think its because i feel kinda like if i join as a member, i'll have to perform and it will be like high school... i won't be in charge or something... i kinda feel like i *need* to be done with performing and move on to the next step... does that make sense?

i think i'm starting to ramble (but when do i not?) so i'm going to go... besides, i've only got about one minute left :P

ttyl!

guardiegurl06 @ 2006-04-19T10:55:00

2006-04-19T15:10:16Z

hello!

we're starting our next paper, so i'm back in the computer lab during second block...

26 days left of school!!! woohooooo! lol... can't wait!

i got a job out at a greenhouse in ithaca. it's not too bad! i'm doing pretty much the same thing the *entire* time i'm out there, so its kinda boring, but it pays well, and the schedule is pretty flexible!... i'm not complaining! :P

i was supposed to work out there tonight but apparantly i've got an eye appt. tonight :S i didn't know about that until last night at about 8:30pm. yeah...

and apparantly we won't be starting stuff for highland festival until after state, which is the 29th, which doesn't really surprise me, but this is going to be kinda annoying... that leaves us about three weeks to choreograph *at least* two new songs. and newman apparantly doesn't really want to do america, or loch lomond (thank god!), but he does want to do two scottish songs. O.o hopefully they wont be really slow, because that will suck, but how many *fast* scottish songs can you think of? lol... three weeks to choreograph and *teach* this group the routines, then teach them to do them while marching down the street. O.o *groan*

oh well. it'll be interesting... hopefully newman won't just let us fend for ourselves and will actually put somebody in charge.... hey mel, wanna come back for a few weeks??? :P probably not, and i don't blame you!

i can just imagine the hell that will ensue if he lets britney, ada, and palmer choreograph... O.o

ohhhh weeeeell.

oh, maud and heather! about april 29... after i get back from state (we're supposed to be back about 3pm) we should go to the mall!... i know heather works until 3 also, so unless something comes up or maud can't go, we need to get a hold of amanda also! what do you guys think?

let me know!

well, i gotta go... ttyl!